Sunday, November 19

Happy 2nd Birthday, Undecidedlyso!

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You've come a long way, Undecided! You've even begun making decisions, and more importantly, sticking to them! As this new change approaches, let's take a look back at some of my favorite posts of the last two years, shall we?

There are times that I pretty much think I'm the funniest person alive. Really, I'm probably the only one that laughs. But hey, that's good enough for me:
Civil War
I may be losing it.
And a story I still tell to this day:
Sunday, a day...

Acceptance This is still something I'm figuring out today, and most likely will be figuring out the rest of my life. Just this weekend, S and I were discussing this very thing. Here's proof when I started to realize it.

The past four years have been the most difficult of my life. I am grateful for the lessons I've taken from it all...but I still struggle to this day. I'm working on making the happiness far outweigh the sadness and frustration...and I'll keep working on it until I get there.
Out with the 25...
The not-so-happy post.
I'm sometimes a fake.
In need of repair.
A bit foggy.
And something I'm still feeling: Matter

The one underlying topic that has remained throughout these two years that I can't seem to escape, has been the Ghost. And, of course, those end up being my favorites. This one, being the favorite of the favorites. It was relieving to write. Although never shared directly with him, it helps me to re-read it at times that I'm feeling most vulnerable, times when I'm only thinking about this. He's still in my life. And I still can't figure out how that needs to change. But I know it does. Ever since this moment my life hasn't been the same.

I think the best thing about having a blog is seeing the progression you've made, or haven't made, in the way that you view the world or how you choose to look at things in your life. In the past four years, since I've been in Rhode Island, I've become a totally different person. Despite my negativity at times, and my uncertainty in my future, I'm so happy with the person I've become. I'm proud of the person I've become. And really, I can't ask for much more than that.

Out of the last two years, this post is by-far my favorite because it describes the turning point that I had been hoping for, the reason I still feel driven, and the reason I went from this to this.:


Thanks for reading, guys. I don't necessarily know if anyone reads it besides the three that I DO know...but thank you.


dammit sami said...

What a lovely post. You know, I don't think I've laid eyes on you in the past 2 years, but I feel very close to you at times. When we're rich, let's go on vacation together.

Undecided said...

do we have to be rich? because i'd really like that right now. and i agree. maybe we were separated at birth. wait a minute....i think i've made that comment before....

dammit sami said...

Hahaha. If you can figure out how two broke-as-a-joke sumbitches like you and me can go on vacation together, then yes. We can go RIGHT NOW. But I expect some sort of pool and umbrella drink action out of any vacastion, I'll have you know.